interview
As Usual
Im super stressed because I have an interview tomorrow!
Also because I feel that I didnt prepare much for it I guess
And I feel damn tired, physically because of all the trainings I had this week
Backaches, handaches, legaches
everywhere aches and hurts
I just need to remember that
While it is an interview and I should strive to do well
Since I didnt prepare, then let’s train my ability to handle questions on the spot
and treat it as an opportunity to train my interview skills
I didnt even bring makeup home cause of the rush yesterday
zzzzzz
Jiayou yining!
uniquely me?
I went for in search for some career guidance today, and the career advisor said that I was unique! and she comfirmed my doubts about how its hard to find someone of the same frequency as me because im unique!
What a strange thing to say to a student aka me
Hahah! and ive been pondering about it for the past 1 hour pluss and I think im going to continue mulling about it!!! SRSLY hahahahaha…
shld stopp and mugg away!
what does it mean when im unique anyway? I wonder if that’s good or bad…srsly….
Christmas in singapore
need to give myself some time
and give ourselves both some time
Exams
Ok i was super unproductive when I came back!
but at least I organised my notes so im ready to do a trial paper again!
Im working my ass off
or at least the sheer amount of time i spent in the seminar room to study is freaking myself out la
but i have no choice
at least if i dont do well i can always say i tried my best
and to some extent i did…
i really dunoe what is the right way to make myself more productive/efficient or to chiong
so all i can do is the stupid way,
to simply devote a lot of time to studying it!
the paper’s on saturday and i really dont wanna have another ac208 experience ):
goshhhhhhh
shall just try my best, and be led by heaven
ok yining jiayou!
a few more dayss to exam omgg
i think my stress level is rapidly increasing
this sem feels quite odd? like somehow i dont feel the physical stress
and its not cause i started early
actually well i tink i started early, asked prof questions and all that alr…
but somehow im still so slowww
ive been studying everyday till 2/3 but somehow im still so slowww
i study so hard, but i feel that nothing is really going in
i guess all i can do is try and work harder to achieve it
i guess this really isnt my cup of tea
study hard! a few more days left only!
In spite of being such a terrible person
I guess I sure am a lucky one with so many nice people by my side
Tolerating and being so understanding
Must stop comparing myself with other people!
Ultimately live is about chances and about e paths you take
You should think abt what u have instead of what u don’t have!
It has been an emotional week
Met a jc classmate and things started unraveling in my head since then
Of things that were, things that are
Things that were meant to be, things that were expected
Things that couldve been, things that shouldve been
But ultimately, we only live this life once;
Its too short for excuses; or regret, or self-blame;
Its too momentaneous, to be hoping to be better than you are; too transient to waste plotting how to make others think better of you;
Too fleeting to worry, to ponder, to be undecided, to waver in your confidence, beliefs and esteem
Why not spend this short life of your with confidence, esteem and grace?
do what you think is right at that moment, because certain things we only realise in retrospect
Once done, evaluate, reflect, criticise, ponder, but move on
On to the next bid adventure
Fill yourself with drive, energy, motivation, and look ahead
Instead of always slowing your pace to glance backward,
Move on
On the next big adventure
Nothing you ever do can ever be a waste of time, there’s always something to be learnt from it, people whom you can learn from
You must have learnt something from there, dig deep to discover what it is
And stow it in your bag of learnings
Then move on,
On to the next big adventure
If you feel that you aren’t doing something right; aren’t doing the right thing;
Learn from it, choose your next big adventure
Then move on; on to your next bid adventure
These reflective moments are, though not productive, bt the most though provoking of the entire sem!
STAY FOCUSED
even if you get rejection, or you get opinion that you do not wish to get
dont panic, dont get confused
be open to that opinion, receive it, accept it and
think through it and evaluate it, and come to your own conclusion
ultimately he can only give you opinion, but he cant decide your direction nor your conclusion
and if he ignors you, take it as a lesson next time never to procrastinate and push things back
take it as a lesson to always nurture relationships with people, treasure the people, because you do not know when you would need their opinion, or their help
and stop taking this for granted!
JIAYOU YINING!
ultimately this things that be are meant to be, if you are meant to do something, you will get there eventually, no matter what he thinks, no matter what anybody thinks
sometimes it maybe be better to realise before you start, then to have discover it halfway in the midst of it
oh how i wished somebody told me that i shouldnt have taken acturial science. i should have dropped one stupid degree, taken a second major in law, and just settle for a second upper,
instead of always trying to pull up my grades and never learning anything because im afraid to take the modules that will pull down my stupid cgpa
STOP STUDYING FOR THE SAKE OF STUDYING!
